A Loveless World

Do you take the time to see a soul

Or just a shell, not a whole

You pass people on the street

Not making contact, staring at your feet


The world around us, taught us to judge

On looks, appearance, not give love

But humans need love, I know we do

We need happiness, affection

So give a passing smile or two


Say hello to your neighbor

Don’t judge on just skin

Do you know their story?

Do you know what’s within?


It’s a sad reality, the one that we have

A loveless world, no compassion to be had

I implore you to try, try to see

The world has much to give, there is much to see


People can be kind, if you offer a hand

Make that first step, put faith in man

If we all come together, there will be changes

Earth will be, the happiest of places

Living in Fantasyland

Open your fucking eyes

Story-time, every evening in this glim reality

Or is it fantasyland that I see

My head hits the pillow and it feels like I crashed into a thousand needles

I desperately try to fight this world I live in

Escape my own brain

 

How can something so nonexistent cause so much turmoil

Tossing and turning throughout the night afraid to shut my lids

I fear the dreams about to come

For it will never be lived

 

Close my eyes

Are you there?

Can you feel me?

My heart reaching for yours

I’m afraid to say your name

For fear of wanting more

 

You invade my mind

Shooting, a rocket into space

The thoughts, they dance

Like a child in the rain

Vivid imagines of what could have been

I think I’ve gone insane

 

I Close my eyes just to ask

Are you there?

Can you feel me?

My heart plays a trick, I can see you so clear

I see blue eyes, blonde hair

But this, it’s what I fear

 

Your skin so warm next to me

Entangled in the mess of sheets

A simple touch sends electricity bolts

Is this passion or fear

 

Hands engulfed in a sea of hair

Pulling you in closer

Breathing you in

I don’t want to let go

I think you are my oxygen after I inhaled CO

 

Wait, stop

This is just a dream

Snap out of it I say

It’s going to cause a scene

Get on with your life

These pictures are not real

That time has come and gone

 

Go back to reality

Open your fucking eyes

Why can’t you see

You already have blue skies

The sun is shining, that’s what someone said

You have everything you need

 

But I don’t I scream

With the voice inside my head

If my needs were met

An invisible man wouldn’t be in my bed

Back to Us

Your heart is where I live

I know you see me

What’s going on inside

The feelings of my heart

The thoughts of my mind

You wrap me up tight

Give me all I need

I have hope for the future

You and me

That’s all I need

Things have been rocky

Some might say, rather tough

But I know what we are made of

I won’t give up

We are on our path

Back from where we came

We’ve had quite the journey

But I still feel the same

I need your arms around me

Embrace me in your love

They say a home is where you live

They must not know love

My home is a person

Made of flesh and bones

The markings on your body

Is a map that leads me home

Your heart is where I live

You

Have my soul

I want this forever

Just you and me

This life is for always

Now I can finally see

Years

You taught me about fire


Near the sunset

Not far from the rain

The longing in my heart

Makes me go insane


I travel my mind

Like a map of the sea

Wondering where I will find

You and me


 Stumbling along the beaten path

I came across you

My soul, torn in half

You picked me up

Put me back together

Two became one

I thought this was happily forever


Days turned into weeks

Weeks into months

Those months suddenly became years

What once was, now is dust


 My soul feels shaky

Tired

But, I don’t want to quit

I know that we are somewhere

This isn’t our love


You taught me about fire

Passion

How to sore

I swear I could fly

But suddenly we are drowning

Always calling a score


Seconds turn into hours

Yesterday’s words ringing in our ears

Passion is just a fruit

What happened over the years?


 I want us back

You know, the old you and me

People who used to laugh and play

That’s how we should be


 Maybe we are fire and oil

Sometimes love isn’t enough

I know that we are somewhere

This isn’t how our love is


I won’t give up trying

I’ll give all of my breaths

You’ll see me leave how you found me

A broken soul in two

If there is an end it won’t be pretty

My soul belongs to you


Oceans

I see in slow motion

I see in slow motion
Valleys of darkness in front of my eyes
The color from the world has turned gray
No longer vibrant
Vast shades of greens and blue, no longer
I hear words in murmurs
I see others have excitement and I feel a void
An emptiness like that black plague sweeping over my body
Prepared to drown me in a sea of tidal waves

When did this happen?
How did this happen?

I am a shell of my former self
A zombie with a smile
I look the same
I still laugh
I lie in bed and see myself 
Laying there
Screaming on the inside

I look at you
Pleading with my eyes for help
Please stop
Give me what I need
Don’t you love me?

I'm sorry
I don’t give you what you need
Meet up to your expectations
You break me down
Build me up
Over and over
I can't breathe

You are my ocean
I swim inside of you everyday
Never breaking the surface
I can't quite reach the shore
It's just beyond my grasp
Just like happiness

Please stop
Give me what I need
Don’t you love me?

I love you
You are my ocean
I swim under water
I see in slow motion

 

Tomorrow

Let’s discuss this tomorrow

Let’s discuss this tomorrow

You said

Anxiety

My chest

Ringing

My ears

Week

Never ends

Car

Won’t start

Phone

Won’t ring

Flowers

Never bloom

Frigid

Winter frost

Brown grass

Sharp blades

Thoughts

Can’t escape

Let’s discuss this tomorrow

You said

Tomorrow never came

Tomorrow is the wind that whistles though the trees

I think it may be you

Tomorrow is looking across the street

Wondering if I’ll see your face

Tomorrow is the ping on my phone

Wondering if it’s you

Tomorrow is bad dream

I can’t escape

Tomorrow is fear

Never knowing

Tomorrow is stagnant

What ifs

Tomorrow is rethinking

Everything I’ve done

Tomorrow is questioning

Who am I?

Tomorrow is lost

Illusions of my mind

Let’s discuss this tomorrow

You said

Tomorrow is here

Gone