Callers

Today I’m going to have a good day

Today I’m going to have a good day

Today I’m going to have a good day

 

I repeat it three times before I open my eyes

Everyday

Started with lies

 

The pain consumes my soul

What’s left of who I was

The callers come every day, asking for different pieces

Each caller takes a little part of me

Nothing given in return

 

Today I’m going to have a good day

Today I’m going to have a good day

Today I’m going to have a good day

 

I yell these words over and over in my head

Willing them to be true

 

I beg the callers

“Please, do not come

I need my soul

This body can’t handle

What you have done.”

The callers never listen

Coming for what is due

 

Piece by piece

Part by part

The callers take their bit

I am a broken body

My soul, not much is left

 

The smallest of tasks are hard to fulfill

{Tying my shoes}

{Putting on my shirt}

I took these simplicities for granted

When I was not ill

 

Fatigue

Torment

Head to feet

I want the old me back

The one the world still sees

That person is gone forever

This is the new me

 

Today I didn’t have a good day.

 

 

Insecure 

The ones that trail off your lips.

Her Smile.

Her Hair.

Are you ever insecure, of the past?One that you’ve never seen? 

Could it bite you in the ass? 

The thoughts in the night. 

The ones of. 
          Her. 
The ones that trail off your lips. 

          Her Smile. 

          Her Hair.

It makes me think. 

Is that what you want¿
Should I aspire to be more. 

To allude to she¿

She had that essence. 

You know, the one that everyone aspires to have,

It says, says oh, look at me.
She doesn’t try hard, or does she? Appearances, who know, they confuse me.

My heart says you love me. But it also says.

There was one that, got away.
The one with, the dark hair, she floated, her daughter pulled you astray.
She had that, je ne sais quoi.

You know, that pull you in, beauty.

Physique that, pulls you in. 
Do you love me? I know you do. 

The question is…

Do I love me, do I think of you? 

Do I think of you? 

Do I think of you, with the girl.
With the girl that didn’t have it all. 

The one you wanted to save.

You didn’t want to let, let the daughter fall.
Can you forget that piece, the piece of your heart?

These broken pieces, these are. 

The others ones, they makes me.
Have comfort.

I need comfort but not forever.

This love is great. 

But it’s not clever. 

I need a love that pulls my strings. 

But this love I have. 

All it does, is please.

A Loveless World

Do you take the time to see a soul

Or just a shell, not a whole

You pass people on the street

Not making contact, staring at your feet


The world around us, taught us to judge

On looks, appearance, not give love

But humans need love, I know we do

We need happiness, affection

So give a passing smile or two


Say hello to your neighbor

Don’t judge on just skin

Do you know their story?

Do you know what’s within?


It’s a sad reality, the one that we have

A loveless world, no compassion to be had

I implore you to try, try to see

The world has much to give, there is much to see


People can be kind, if you offer a hand

Make that first step, put faith in man

If we all come together, there will be changes

Earth will be, the happiest of places