Insecure 

The ones that trail off your lips.

Her Smile.

Her Hair.

Are you ever insecure, of the past?One that you’ve never seen? 

Could it bite you in the ass? 

The thoughts in the night. 

The ones of. 
          Her. 
The ones that trail off your lips. 

          Her Smile. 

          Her Hair.

It makes me think. 

Is that what you want¿
Should I aspire to be more. 

To allude to she¿

She had that essence. 

You know, the one that everyone aspires to have,

It says, says oh, look at me.
She doesn’t try hard, or does she? Appearances, who know, they confuse me.

My heart says you love me. But it also says.

There was one that, got away.
The one with, the dark hair, she floated, her daughter pulled you astray.
She had that, je ne sais quoi.

You know, that pull you in, beauty.

Physique that, pulls you in. 
Do you love me? I know you do. 

The question is…

Do I love me, do I think of you? 

Do I think of you? 

Do I think of you, with the girl.
With the girl that didn’t have it all. 

The one you wanted to save.

You didn’t want to let, let the daughter fall.
Can you forget that piece, the piece of your heart?

These broken pieces, these are. 

The others ones, they makes me.
Have comfort.

I need comfort but not forever.

This love is great. 

But it’s not clever. 

I need a love that pulls my strings. 

But this love I have. 

All it does, is please.

A Loveless World

Do you take the time to see a soul

Or just a shell, not a whole

You pass people on the street

Not making contact, staring at your feet


The world around us, taught us to judge

On looks, appearance, not give love

But humans need love, I know we do

We need happiness, affection

So give a passing smile or two


Say hello to your neighbor

Don’t judge on just skin

Do you know their story?

Do you know what’s within?


It’s a sad reality, the one that we have

A loveless world, no compassion to be had

I implore you to try, try to see

The world has much to give, there is much to see


People can be kind, if you offer a hand

Make that first step, put faith in man

If we all come together, there will be changes

Earth will be, the happiest of places

Living in Fantasyland

Open your fucking eyes

Story-time, every evening in this glim reality

Or is it fantasyland that I see

My head hits the pillow and it feels like I crashed into a thousand needles

I desperately try to fight this world I live in

Escape my own brain

 

How can something so nonexistent cause so much turmoil

Tossing and turning throughout the night afraid to shut my lids

I fear the dreams about to come

For it will never be lived

 

Close my eyes

Are you there?

Can you feel me?

My heart reaching for yours

I’m afraid to say your name

For fear of wanting more

 

You invade my mind

Shooting, a rocket into space

The thoughts, they dance

Like a child in the rain

Vivid imagines of what could have been

I think I’ve gone insane

 

I Close my eyes just to ask

Are you there?

Can you feel me?

My heart plays a trick, I can see you so clear

I see blue eyes, blonde hair

But this, it’s what I fear

 

Your skin so warm next to me

Entangled in the mess of sheets

A simple touch sends electricity bolts

Is this passion or fear

 

Hands engulfed in a sea of hair

Pulling you in closer

Breathing you in

I don’t want to let go

I think you are my oxygen after I inhaled CO

 

Wait, stop

This is just a dream

Snap out of it I say

It’s going to cause a scene

Get on with your life

These pictures are not real

That time has come and gone

 

Go back to reality

Open your fucking eyes

Why can’t you see

You already have blue skies

The sun is shining, that’s what someone said

You have everything you need

 

But I don’t I scream

With the voice inside my head

If my needs were met

An invisible man wouldn’t be in my bed

Tomorrow

Let’s discuss this tomorrow

Let’s discuss this tomorrow

You said

Anxiety

My chest

Ringing

My ears

Week

Never ends

Car

Won’t start

Phone

Won’t ring

Flowers

Never bloom

Frigid

Winter frost

Brown grass

Sharp blades

Thoughts

Can’t escape

Let’s discuss this tomorrow

You said

Tomorrow never came

Tomorrow is the wind that whistles though the trees

I think it may be you

Tomorrow is looking across the street

Wondering if I’ll see your face

Tomorrow is the ping on my phone

Wondering if it’s you

Tomorrow is bad dream

I can’t escape

Tomorrow is fear

Never knowing

Tomorrow is stagnant

What ifs

Tomorrow is rethinking

Everything I’ve done

Tomorrow is questioning

Who am I?

Tomorrow is lost

Illusions of my mind

Let’s discuss this tomorrow

You said

Tomorrow is here

Gone